Wednesday, April 18, 2018

Hi . .

So many times and I have been meaning to do an update and just never got around to it. The longer you leave it the harder it is to get back too as well.

But all is well.  I have to say I'm in a very good place, in fact the best I've been in a long time.  I try not to let things stress me out too much.  Mr T is pretty much the same too - not so stressed.

Lot's has happened so I thought instead of writing about it - I'll just show you some pictures.

So, last year we did a little cruise, the same one that Lynda was on.  Albeit we only saw each other briefly.  We had a ball and decided next time we were going on a longer cruise. 










We became grandparents again . . . no. 6  This is Jakeb, another cutie who's already growing up so fast.


My little brother got married . . . I was asked to speak at the wedding, I am somehow the matriach of the family.  


And of course there was fishing . . .

Another Christmas Day on the ocean



We got ourselves a little place at the beach . . .



It was a bit grotty inside but I gave it a makeover.

Before . . .








I'm really pleased with how much better it looks.

After . . .























I decided to paint the pool over my summer hols . . . bloody nearly killed me, soooo hot 




Wouldn't you know it I got right to the corner and my roller gave out.  So I had to wait till the next day to go and get another.


But in the end it was well worth the result.


Well time tracked pretty quickly especially now with heading up to the beach nearly every second weekend and before you knew it - it was Raro time.

This year is our 10th wedding anniversary and we decided last year we'd go back for our wedding anniversary - so said of talking about it - I did something about it.

I booked and paid for it last year.

I have to say that this is the most relaxed I've seen us for a very long time.

We have arrived

Just like me remembered

Trying to get a hang of this selfie stick

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This is the life - we lived in our pool

Just as we remembered it











Happy Anniversary huney . . .




Weight wise, I'm starting to lose weight - slowly but at least it's nice to see it going down not up.  More on that next time. There's enough for today.

I'll try not to be so long between posts again.

Ciao


Friday, June 23, 2017

Miserable day . . .

Winter has well and truly arrived.  

A very bleak day,  - wet, cold and windy.  The garden at work is looking quite glum.  




Looking at this it seems like I'm going to have to get the cobbles and the wall sprayed again before too long.  


So I'm slowly getting back on track with healthy eating and living.
And I do mean slowly.  I'm not very well prepared I'm afraid.  Josh came home from his cooking class the other day with a couple of bacon an egg pies (without the pastry).  Just perfect for me.

This weekend I'm going to get myself organised.  





This supermarket opened yesterday literally two minutes walk from where we live. I love it.  I can't wait to get in there.  I love how everythings packaged.   I'm so looking forward not having to battle the masses and the convenience.  We also have a mad butcher further down where I always buy my meat in bulk and package it up.  Preparation for me is the key.  I'm just going to have to keep myself organised.

Tomorrow, I'm catching up with my grandbabies.  I don't get them to see them as often as I use to since Nick and Janelle broke up.  I met up with Janelle a little while ago to discuss me having the kids are bit more and not having to wait until they're with their dad.  She is more than happy for that.

She sent me a photo last night of Lucas helping his sister with her homework.  




So lunch is nearly over so I better get myself sorted and back to work.

Looks like a miserable weekend ahead so stay warm and dry.

Ciao.












Wednesday, June 21, 2017

M.I.A. . .

Time does fly obviously.   

I am slack but honestly my life is far from dull.  There always seems to be something or someone to deal with.

I am at a place in my life right now where I plan on being selfish. I've given a lot to people and received not a lot of thanks back in return.  

I'm tired and I'm over selfish people.  

This is me time now.  


About three weeks ago we got a new vehicle.  She's my "beauty".  I let Mr T drive her occasionally.  But not before he's checked his clothes aren't covered in alloy.


I just need to figure how to get in and out of her elegantly.  I think I'm nailing the getting in, just have to figure out a better way of getting out apart from sliding.  




Life's battles and menopause has knocked me around the past few years.  

I have less than 10 years until retirement age.  I figure I need to get myself sorted out health and lifestyle wise so I can enjoy it, more importantly be here to enjoy it.  

When I started blogging a few moons ago, we had a wonderful network of bloggers that supported each other.  I do miss those days.  I was very lucky to get to meet quite a few as well.  Now with the switch to social media blogging has become a bit of a hit and miss for a lot of us.  I'm also not too good at posting on Facebook either.

Out of the two though I think I would prefer to blog.  

So I've got a lot happening in the next few weeks which is exciting so I think I'll keep track of everything here.

Even though I maybe the only one who reads this, lol.

Ciao








Monday, March 6, 2017

OMG - just 2 more flippin sleeps . . . .

and freedom!!!!!!

OMG, OMG I'm just so freakin excited.  Can you tell.

I know I said we were child free but now Mr T and I are really going to be HOME ALONE.

I've had my brother living with me since June of last year.  His marriage broke up and it was coming towards the end of the farming season and he had had enough.  Mum was worried about him and he had no where to go and no job.  So I told him he could come and stay and work for us.  He's had a chance to get on his feet, meet a new lady and has now got a new job organised and is moving to Whangarei (where the new lady is) this Wednesday.

I've loved having him, given us a chance to get closer but the time has come for him to move on and start the next chapter of his life.  

Just like me and Mr T.  Alone with no child supervision.  

Is it wrong to feel so happy.  

Josh is happy.  He came out last weekend for a visit for a couple of hours.  His depression is under control.  He still has social anxiety issues but his key worker is helping him.  He has settled in really well to the respite place where he is staying.  He's actually moved into a little cottage on the property so he can learn some independence skills.  He is asking for help. He's learning to cook and how to do other things for himself.  In saying that - he does know how to look after himself but before simply chose not to.

Anyway he's happy and it's a weight off our minds.  A good feeling to know that we've got the communication back with him.

I do feel this year will be our year. 

I feel like I'm gushing now so I better stop.

I went for a walk and saw my newest grandbaby at lunchtime. Handy they live close to my work.  So I'll leave you with a photo.



Ciao for now.

Lee-Anne





Thursday, February 9, 2017

A new year . . .

So that's the Christmas /New Year break done and dusted.  Back to reality.

December turned out to be quite a busy month for us.

Our Krystal graduated from AUT with a Bachelor of Design.

Very proud of our girl.





We welcomed our latest grandson just before christmas.

Kyan William Baine.



We managed some time away on our own doing what we love.
Beautiful flat seas, gorgeous sunny days.  No internet, no phone service.  Just us.



 Spent time with our grandbabies.




And now the holiday is over and work has begun.

So let's start with some good news.

It's been nearly a couple of months since I've had a hot flush.  
After flippin years of suffering literally dozens a day it just stopped. Like someone flicked a switch.  It actually took me a little while to click.   I feel like a new woman.  My weight has been a battle and now things are finally improving again.  It really feels like I'm over the hurdle and looking forward to what 2017 is going to bring health and weight wise.

Now for the not so good news.

As I mentioned in my last post - Mr T and I are childfree.  

We had a few issues with Josh last year.  After we came back from the Gold Coast his sister took him to the Dr where he blurted out that he wanted to kill himself and that he had a plan to drown himself in the pool.  He had depression and social anxiety.

He ended up living with his sister for a couple of weeks, then he moved to Whangarei with his brother.  Everybody thought they knew better than us and we were just bad parents.  We copped a bit flack from Mr T's two oldest kids.

Only things didn't go quite as well as they thought and about three weeks ago they said they were bringing him home they had had enough. 

I didn't want him home.  He had developed a real bad behaviour issue with me and his dad and he was unbearable.  He lasted one night at home then we had a big set to the next morning. Typical teenager - you can't make me, I don't have to etc. I made a phone call and got him into see a counsellor the next morning.  I tricked him into going.  When we got there he told her that he had overdosed on his medication.  So it changed everything.  The crisis team was called in.  I didn't want Josh to come home.  He needed to be somewhere where he could get help.  I had to do my nut a couple of times.   He's spent about a month in the hospital and now he has been transferred to a home where he can be rehabilitated.

Mr T and I are about to start counselling as well.  We're having difficulty understanding what's really happening.  His behaviour is just over the top and neither of us want him home.  He's just so rude and nasty.  Mr T feels guilt.  I did initially but I feel differently now.  I think he just didn't want to get out and get a job.  He was quite happy to stay at home.  I think alot of his threats are more attention seeking to stop him from starting to take responsibility for his own life instead of everyone doing it for him.  I will agree that he probably has anxiety, but not to the extent that he can't overcome it.   Laziness is a huge factor.  

But in saying those things - I can't take the risk that there might be something wrong.  Which is why I really pushed to make sure he was in a safe place and hopefully get the right help to put him on track.  

So for now we are just taking it one day at a time.  

In the meantime we are going to do our best not to stress.  

Ciao for now.


Tuesday, December 13, 2016

How do you start blogging again when you've been away for so long . . .




What can I say . . . life's been complicated.

But - I'm ready for the next chapter to begin.

After such a long, long time I finally feel like I can breathe.

It feels like a new beginning and I'm really looking forward to it.


I'm very tired.  Exhausted.  My health hasn't been 100%.  I'm still struggling with menopause.  The hot flushes are intense.  It's zapped me of a lot of energy, sleepless nights and overall just totally feeling like crap from extra kg's and just being so unfit.

I'm tired of burying my head in the sand and I'm tired of making excuses for myself about not doing anything about it.

I'm pretty fed up and I'm making changes to get my sexy back.





My life is less complicated now.  I have less stress  and finally after nearly 30 years of parenting Mr T and I are childess!!!!!  While I have been looking forward to this day unfortunately I would have like it to be under better circumstances.

But yes, childless we are.  They will always come home along with the grandies which we love, but overall they all have their own lives now and it's time for us to adjust.

So a few weeks ago I started aqua jogging again.  I'm trying for 3 days a week at 45 mins in the pool.  I'm able to maintain an above average pace the whole time and the flushes don't bother me, lol.

I've started back on a low carb diet again - eliminating bread, potatoes etc.  

I'm also "gulp" drastically cutting back on my wine.  I have found a nice refreshing drink which is no carb, no sugar, no alcohol.  That's a huge help.

So yes, it's time for a new chapter to begin.  For me and Mr T.

Tonight we are going up to Auckland as we have Krystal's graduation from AUT tomorrow.  Wow, where have the years gone. 

Then on Thursday I get to meet my new baby grandson - that is if he hasn't arrived before then.  

So it's all happening.  Exciting times.  If there is anyone still out there I would love your support.  To keep me honest.

Ciao for now.


Lee-Anne 


Thursday, July 28, 2016

Life's been tough . . . not going to lie




It's been really tough for me for a while now.

My mum got sick last year.  We were told we would lose her last September.  However she rallied and has been on a rollercoaster ever since.  She had split her oesophagus and her stomach was badly ulcerated.  Her only source of nutrients was through having nasal feeding tube put in.

My life  since September has consisted of many many trips after work over to Tauranga spending time with her at home in hospital.  In April she went in for day surgery to have a procedure that would enlarge her oesophagus and allow her to eat more solid foods.  However it had the opposite effect and she eventually stopped eating and slowly started fading away before our very eyes.  I spent many nights heading over to Tauranga after work, staying till late, driving home and getting up the next morning and doing it all again.  I spent a week staying with her in the hospital just the two of us and she started to perk up, only to crash the morning I had to go home.  After talking to the doctors we decided to bring her home.  It's what she wanted.  Six days later she passed away.

It's just been over three weeks now.  I'm still numb, I still work on automaton.  I still have to have that really big cry.  My body is still physically and emotionally tired and it's still hard for me to believe I can go home everynight and not have to rush over to Tauranga.

My mum was never a tiny lady, but when she passed away she was only 42 kgs.

I was only about 8 or 9 when I found out I was adopted and when I found out she was my mother at the age of 15 I was amazed because I have known her all my life.  My foster parents, who eventually adopted me, maintained contact with her all through the years.  They use to take me over to visit her and I also spent one school holiday week with her a year.  My mother has been part of my life ever since.

My two mums









Things are slowly starting to return to normal.  I've missed my grandbabies a lot.

I had a road trip with Miss Sophia a couple of weekends ago and it was so good for me.



There is a bit more to tell but I'll just leave it for now.

Lee-Anne 

Hi . .

So many times and I have been meaning to do an update and just never got around to it. The longer you leave it the harder it is to get back ...